July 20, 2015

Miriam Bird Greenberg: “Ophidia”

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This week we’re delighted to feature a poem from our new summer Defy issue, 38.2. Miriam Bird Greenberg is the recipient of fellowships from the National Endowment for the Arts, the Poetry Foundation, and the Provincetown Fine Arts Work Center. A former Wallace Stegner Fellow and the author of two chapbooks–All night in the new country (Sixteen Rivers Press) and Pact-Blood, Fever Grass (Ricochet Editions)–Miriam has crossed the continent by bicycle, freight train, and as a hitchhiker. She lives in Berkeley and teaches ESL.

Author’s note:

“Ophidia” began as a series of fragmented recollections of a bicycle trip from San Diego to El Paso, and so it’s fitting to write this from the road a year and a half later, between breaks riding up one of the countless mountains between Kunming and Xishuangbanna, in China’s Yunnan province. Through 40km descents down serpentine mountainside highways and bowls of mixian for lunch in a different town every afternoon, one thing that keeps running loops through my head is that much-repeated quote—attributed to Dostoyevsky, or John Gardener, or someone else—that there are only two possible stories: a man goes on a journey, or a stranger comes to town. It’s what I’ve been doing every day, as told from both sides (the person who goes on a journey is just as likely not a man, after all). But what I’m interested in lately are stories that happen between those two points, along the seams and in the roadside shade. Over the past fifteen years the US has been shaped by a series of disasters; this new century might be best characterized by a zeitgeist of psychic instability grown out of and in response to those disasters (imagine The Descent of Alette rewritten as narrative nonfiction). If the adage about two possible stories is true, then what I hope to chronicle are the intimate landscapes and sensory worlds of dispossession that are written in the margins of every page of those two stories. If I’ve been indulging in my own documentary impulse lately by telling true stories—complicated by the mask made of fog that is poetry, with its hazy relationship to truth (constantly destabilized by something as simple as syntax, or the way empty space makes its way around the words of a poem) and by my own reluctance to write a recognizable self into my work)—it’s because I’d like to make sense of the psychological spaces that reside between points of slow disaster, the stories of countless lives altered by tragedy or discovery, or both, which cast their small shadows on the events writ large on the world. What I want to explore in “Ophidia,” and in so much of what I write lately, are those small shadows, each cat’s-cradled out of breath and syntax.

 

Ophidia

 

— The constellation Ophiuchus is said to represent a man in the coils of a snake. Both the celestial equator and the ecliptic pass through it, but it is not counted among the signs of the zodiac.

 

The days were already burning
when we crossed the river

 

east toward Quartzite, mini-mall of rock
hounds and geode-hunters, smalltime

 

gamblers in the flea market
of open sky. We slept

 

out on BLM land among a colony
of rubbertramps

 

in the desert, nothing but nebulae
to watch for, dark matter fallen

 

from under the eyelids of stars.
Out here our Ophiuchus

 

was made of serrate and spike,
or had a venomous bite. It held the dark

 

in its mouth limp as mammal
holding a smaller animal might slip unseen

 

past someone with a 12-gauge, pockets
rattling with shells as the teeth of a coyote

 

rattle in their sockets when its skin, sun-
tanned, peels back at the places insects

 

no longer swarm. I gave food
to a man I saw sleeping

 

in a gully by the dunes
who seemed to speak

 

no language at all. Three days
later, I found him walking

 

a highway that crossed
a cleft in the mountains, and our faces

 

lit to see each other. Do you need
anything, I asked? Water,

 

a little money? No,
he shook his head gleefully.

 

He was on his way to Houston
for a check, he’d be back for another

 

the next month, and his dead brother’s
unclaimed disability pay

 

was waiting already in a P.O. box
in Palm Desert. The day meted

 

out its veil of heat, shimmering
over the blacktop, singing

 

in the rails of train tracks
that ran gleaming beside us in the sun.

 

How can one lonesome ghost,
I wondered, spin his own rope

 

to rappel us in the end
into the underworld, and keep himself

 

well-enough fed on bread
and sardines at once? Somewhere

 

a man is picking birdshot
from his meat. Somewhere

 

he’s catching moths
in his two cupped hands. The flame

 

of a match that flares
at the tip of his cigarette

 

before he draws in his breath
deepens the darkness

 

that falls just beyond
his illuminated face.

 

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