Poem of the Week | May 11, 2020
“If A Realtor Asks What I’m Looking for, Here Is What I Will Not Tell Her”
This week’s Poem of the Week is “If A Realtor Asks What I’m Looking for, Here Is What I Will Not Tell Her” by Sarah Carson!
Sarah Carson is the author of the poetry collections Poems in which You Die and Buick City. Her poetry and other writing have appeared in Diagram, Guernica, the Minnesota Review, the Nashville Review and New Ohio Review, among others. She lives in Michigan with her daughter and two dogs.
If A Realtor Asks What I’m Looking for, Here Is What I Will Not Tell Her
Dogs behind storm doors. Dogs behind deadbolts. Dogs on broken glass. My father naked at the bottom of the staircase, bruised open palms, bleeding histrionics. Cardboard cutting a path through the living room where visitors’ feet would not touch the carpet. My mother in pictures holding her daughters tight to her sides. Boys on the porch asking to come in. Some Sundays my mother took us to the mobile home showlot, where we toured plastic-smelling rooms, islands in the kitchens, one bedroom for each of us. We imagined rooms full of new curtains, the places we would hang pages ripped from the racks at the cash register. We took the floorplans home and colored them in with charcoal pencils, taped them to the refrigerator door. All these years later, ask us how we know the boy who lives there now, and my sister will roll her eyes like pennies in a mall fountain, the boy who chased her down so many hillsides, followed her through every classroom in the middle school now sleeps every night in the same room where she slammed the door so often, Momma took it off its hinges. One day another boy will tour me through his loft apartment, the roof deck, the counter barstools, the door in the wall that swings into the adjacent building. How could any of us have imagined what he would find there: a time capsule of swivel chairs, straight razors, where somewhere in the dust Momma once stood at the wash basin, shifted her weight on the soles of her sneakers. Somewhere in those shadows Momma once dreamed of her own windows, hallways, bright, illuminated light fixtures, one more updo, one more pageboy, a door to which only she has the key.
Since childhood I’ve been obsessed with houses: what happens in them, who lives in which ones, what they say about us and how they hold memories after we’re gone. This poem is an attempt at a family history of houses—and imagines an alternate family history in which a home is a safe space to escape into rather than to escape from.
SEE THE ISSUE
Poem of the Week
Oct 18 2021
“Self-Portrait Lined by Mina Loy” Simone Muench and Jackie K. White
This week’s Poem of the Week is “Self-Portrait Lined by Mina Loy” by Simone Muench and Jackie K. White! Simone Muench is the author of several books including Wolf Centos
Poem of the Week
Oct 11 2021
“Love Poem” Mathew Weitman
This week’s Poem of the Week is “Love Poem” by Mathew Weitman! Mathew Weitman is a Brooklyn based poet and writer. His work appears or is forthcoming in The Evergreen
Poem of the Week
Oct 04 2021
“Scare” Nickole Brown
This week’s Poem of the Week is “Scare” by Nickole Brown! Nickole Brown is the author of Sister and Fanny Says. Her poems have, among other places, appeared in The